May 2013
10 posts
It scares me how quickly I can go from being okay to being completely insecure.
Go ahead and keep tossing the word “love” around like you’re some pro while I go vomit.
Whenever my parents tell me to do something, it makes me that much more unmotivated to do it.
I don't care
Throughout this year, I’ve realized that I need to just filter out certain things, and tell myself “I don’t care.” The more I dwell on my thoughts, the more upset I get, so its in my best interest to just let things go. I have the choice to choose happiness, and not let stupid things and stupid people bring me down. Making that choice is a long process though. But I think...
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I’m going to go see The Great Gatsby with friends. I found out that more Darren Criss concert tickets are being sold on Tuesday. Aside from AP tests and stress, things aren’t too shabby. Not at all.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m extremely excited for the ucd science summer program, and I’m so grateful for this opportunity. However, I’m just this average person stuck in the middle of all these super smart people. I’m so self conscious about well… pretty much everything. So you throw me into a group of cool and smart kids, and you get a super awkward and stupid...
I’m so tempted to just reply with one word texts so that you get the clue that you are getting on my last nerve. Lately I’ve been getting this “You aren’t worth my time, why are you even talking to me?” vibe from you and its just ugh. But I’m just going to continue acting like everything is okay between us because the last thing I want is to start something.
It went from a horrible morning to a pretty fun night.
“Sorry” doesn’t even mean anything anymore. It’s just a filler word people feel obligated to say. Don’t say sorry to me all the time when it’s obvious you couldnt care less.
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I’m so upset and annoyed with everyone and everything, but I can’t seem to find the right words to explain why. English. Words. Bleh.
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Tfti= Story of my life
heartless:
It’s annoying when you are fucking fed up with someone’s shit but you don’t want to start something so you have to pretend like you don’t care
Amen
April 2013
39 posts
I’ve noticed that you go through phases where you find one person, and you give them your complete and undivided attention.
I remember when I was that person and I thought “Wow. So this is what it’s like to be in a friendship where the other person cares about me as much as I care about them.” Then you left me in the dust and found someone else to care about. And honestly,...
the worst feeling is when you’re close to someone but they have someone who they will always like more than they like you
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If anyone is selling a general admission ticket (or 2) to the Darren criss Fillmore, SF show I will be your best friend for life. Plz.
I was sitting in the bathroom crying and my mom walked by, stopped, and looked at me. By then I had managed to wipe the tears away and she said “Oh wow! Your eyes are so red, you’re obviously tired. You should go to sleep soon” wtf.
twit-twat:
svveden:
a haiku about me in social situations what what what what what what what what what what what what what what what what what
this looks like the opening to thrift shop
westbor0baptistchurch:
Seeing people having fun without u.
miss-grace:
Are you ever just overwhelmed by the horrifying thought that maybe, nobody ACTUALLY wants you around? And it’s not that you think everyone hates you, but it’s just that you’re not special to anyone? And that its really kind of sucky that you’re about 98% sure that nobody thinks “Wow, I just really like talking to her.” and that you could probably just disappear without anyone caring...
I told/indirectly asked about the concert. My dad said “Aww.” My mom said “Why would you wanna go? His voice sounds horrible” and I responded with “Do you need to get your hearing checked? Maybe you need a q-tip or something.” I JUST REALLY WANT TO GO LIKE IT MIGHT JUST MAKE MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. But on the bright side… they didn’t say no so….
Literally sobbing in the corner because I wanted to see Darren Criss perform in SF but its on a Wednesday the week before finals. WHY.
Anonymous asked: I hope you feel a lot better! :)
jessicalynnnn:
i have this problem where i isolate myself from civilization and then get upset because i feel lonely
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Don’t you dare say “We never hang out anymore” or “Dude I miss talking to you” when you don’t even make the effort to talk to me and walk right past me everyday. If I’m not worth your time, you aren’t worth mine.
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At this point, I’m surprised my “friends” even remember my name. I thought I vanished and didn’t exist anymore. That’s why they’re treating me like that, right?
If I’m venting to you, I’m not trying to compare whose life sucks more.
I don’t want to sound like a self-centered jerk, it just sucks being left in the dust all the time.
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Who needs friends that have a butt load of fun without you all the time when there’s food.
…. I need new friends pronto.
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My science teacher talked to me after class asking if I was okay. He said that I wasn’t really myself and I always seemed down and tired. There hasn’t exactly been a specific reason why I’ve been acting funky, its just stuff thats been building up i guess. I almost cried when he asked me if I was okay just because it felt really good to know that someone cares.
Anonymous asked: Your posts are always on point with my life. You always seem to be feeling down and I wish you didn't. I don't know you, but I feel like you're a really good person and are much more deserving of something better.
Its only Monday and I already hate this week. Whoops.
You’ve changed so much, I honestly can’t even recognize who you are anymore.
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I stood in front of my mirror, and started talking to my mirror about everything that’s been bothering me. Then I started crying. Wtf is wrong with me.
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While everyone is dealing with relationship drama, I’m like “Lol guys I’m still stuck in this fantasy world where Nathan Adrian and I fall in love.” Sorry not sorry.
Uhhh mom. I’m upstairs, I can hear you talking about me. I actually have these pretty cool things called ears.
I feel the need to lock myself in my room and cry like a big baby because people are total jerks.
I wish I could talk to my parents about stuff like this, but it usually ends up in my mom reminding me how stupid and disappointing I am. Whoops. Mahhh bad. Time to talk to my dog.
I just want to sleep and eat for the rest of my...
Pretty please? With a cherry on top?
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It’s almost been 8 months and I’m STILL not over the olympics. Anytime someone mentions anything about it, I feel the need to cry in a corner because I just can’t contain all my feels ya know?
Anonymous asked: Can I ask you why you are feeling left out? Like, you don't have to be specific, but who is making you feel that way and if you had the chance, how would you improve your situation?
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Thank you for reminding me how left out I am. I appreciate it.
I was super awake when I was lounging around doing nothing. After doing 1 problem of calculus, I’m totally confused and all of a sudden I feel tired. Well.
Ew. School tomorrow. That means human interaction.
It feels like no one cares anymore. I’m sure some do, but I just feel like they don’t okay?
Some days I’m really bitter about everything. Unfortunately today is one of those days.
March 2013
15 posts
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Dear parents,
I already know I’m a disappointment. I’m sorry, I wish I could be better. I’m sorry that I’m not the daughter you can brag about, because I’m simply mediocre. Always have been, always will be. It’s so frustrating because I try my best but it never seems to be enough, for you or for me. I’ve been setting high standards, knowing I’ll never reach them,...
